i just realised that i'm really a big coward myself. because i, for one, do not have the guts to stand up to my own mother. hmms. i think that sounded awful.


oh, i'm feelin so remorseful right now. in the past hour, i've hurt my sister's feelings.
x(


that wasn't very nice of me. but i didn mean it!!


see, i was comparing her to my mother. if i were to turn back time, i would have seen my mother in her childhood days.. and i can say that yes, lynette is very much like mummy when she's young. my sister is just as stubborn-minded as a bull, indirectly, i'm also directing the stubborn issue to my mother..


but then i realised something.. lynette is DIFFERENT from mummy, because, she has feelings and stronger emotions, and, she cries.


and i've also realised something else.. it wasn't part of my parents' regime to put the "learn-to-say-sorry" thing into our upbringin. sighs. just to apologise without bursting into a cloud pool of tears involving alot of tissue, is a very difficult task. that is why i can say that i'm a coward.


all this controversy, started because of a phonecall i recieved mummy-dearest arnd 230pm.


she says, "why can't you do normal things?"
isn't playing games,blogging, talking on the phone late, sleepin late, waking up late, NORMAL?
OH NOOO. its NOT.


and OH FOR FREAKING OUT LOUD, she is so FREAKIN DEMANDING. she just does not want me to grow up! when she does, she wants me to be a 21-yr old. she totally skips the 16-19yrs part. and i want to GROW UP to become a teen!!!!!!!!!! makes me so piss to keep fussing about the sleepover issue . i'm 15-goin-on-16 , sleepovers are meant for this age!! but NOOOOOOOOOOOO, she has to say nooooooooooooooo... 21 is alright for sleepovers, but noooooooooooooooo 15-goin-on-16 me cannot attend a sleepover.


21?!?!? its just like telling an 8-yr old that he cannot go to the playground, that he can only play in a playground when he's 15. that is soooooooo... S-T-U-P-I-D!


hais. oh wells, mei, if you're reading this, I'M SORRY!!
*sincerely!