argh. im starting to feel the fatigue from the masses of scientic bio terms.. and their loooonnngg paragraphs of hows and whys.

yea, i know, the previous entry made me sounded like i've gotten the ace of it all. fucking baloneys, im now stuck at respiration. i've still got about mm... 5 chaps... minus off microbiotech and ecology which i absolutely am clueless and confused about.

i guess, i am proceeding as what i planned bout 4 days ago, as in, im at the correct pace of learning, but then gosh, i duno, maybe its the anxiety or the sickening fact that wednesday is the day after tomorro, and the day that the bio booklet will be sitting in front of me, just edging me on with its questions; just sucks. makes me panic, stops my whole well-being, my brain's not fuctioning properly today.

i hope bio tan will be in school tmr. she just gots to.

the computer and goong is doing me no good. nuh uh.
i knew it'll happen, me, builidin solid sandcastles in the air, dreaming about the show.. and the computer, causing me my addiction.

poop man. yea, stinking poop.

pangsai lah.

im so tired of bio. how how... what if i forget my facts.

physically, this mouth of mine opens up every once in a while to say " amanda, you can do it! yes!"

but thats just a response given to the stimulus; stress.

chocolates haven been goin too well either. i've been binging so much, im goin to become a black-patched cow on the new zealand dairy farm .

ohnoo. what am i goin to do...
everybody's like " oh, i finish studyin, now just need to refresh."

i look at myself, still having those 5 big chaps. (nutrition in plants, nutrition in mammals, transport in plants, transport in mammals, the nervous system)
golly, damn you amanda lee qian wen,

damn you.