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Tuesday, January 27, 2009 @ 4:42 PM

"CNY. gah."

sup aliens. i cant wait for CNY to be over and done with, i tell yoo.

its no surprise either; i, AMANDA LEE QIAN WEN, dislike/loathe CNY to the core core core.

i just dont like it.
how i wished i could be abroad during CNY, or perhaps even working! yeh! i wouldnt mind that :)

what is CNY?
angpaos($$$)? catching up with cousins and relatives? having a good reunion dinner and bonding as a family? HAH. my pantat.

i dont need the extra moolah. i mean, my allowance is so much better that what i've had this year, and mind you, my allowance is not like a hefty sum; just the minimum wage of $200 thats all? can you imagine the total amt of my angpaos this year. LAWL.

like i care how much i get during CNY. pffts. so what if i get angpaos amounting to hundreds & thousands over. so what? ( not that i have that amt of money lah) i feel like a total stranger within the bloodline... so, whats the point?

reunion dinner was like ... your backside now.
received tons of naggin and naggin and more nagging at by drunk relatives; specifically my DRUNK grandfather, WHAT A PRIZE. YAY ME. and i cant really connect with my cousin/relatives anymore? i duno .. we just dont.. click? i dont know how other families do it, but if you'd ask me, i'd say putting up a false smile is the way-to-go in my family.

then came all the fuss about buying lots of food, (which will eventually be wasted) and being respectful to elders. wah. seriously, screw that logic man. not that i dont want to be respectful to my elders, just that i dont see it existing in my family, between elders themselves, and i dont like the whole HOO-HA from male-chauvinistic GRANDFATHERS, both sides, Maternal and Paternal.

i dont understand how is it, that both brothers (my dad and my uncle) can not talk/be friendly. they just dont talk to each other! GAWD! if i dont talk to lynette or kenneth for at least 5mins, i think i will suffocate and die.

& like if we'd really want to have a holiday to bring up all the bad past and go on ranting about how women should do things according to their way; please, can i be excused? not interested to hear from egoistic men please, no matter what your age is.

i was so pissed when i was over at my M.grandfather's place ytd. now that my great grandmother is gone(lovely lady she really is), none of the other relatives really drop by the old place anymore. even my uncle had to work ytd, but i highly suspect he requested it out of his own accord..
and there we were havin a some what peaceful lunch.. and then and there, my grandfather went on about how women should be like the olden day women i.e. we should listen to the husband, and be at his bid yadah yadah. warao. i was so motherf pissed!

HELLO! what century is it now? as if i have to be at the bid of my future husband next time? sorry, i think i'll just spit at his face.

as if guys rule the world. as if we own a living to guys?

my apologies, but i think both sexes should be given the same fair treatment, the same mentality, the same everything. what guys can do, women can too! gawd. why cant grandfolks register that.

and then P.grandfather side... going on and on and on about us not calling, etc. ok, partly that was our fault. but mom kinda propagated us on the "evils" of my P.grandparents, so you cant really blame us to have that thinking that all my p.grandparents want is PRIDE and MONEY right. (mom is at fault here......tsk tsk)
and what talk about having close ties and "we're the closest" in the world speech? PLAIN IRONIC. look at both of your sons. are they talking? look at your wife (my grandmother), does she really talk to my dad at all? i heard from my mom, dad was so called brough up my his p.grandmother... since my own grandmother had too much children to handle. so dad's really close with my youngest grandaunt and my youngest granduncle. (OK! CONFUSING! I KNOW! HAHA!) but not with his own family.

what?

how can such things exist? i so cannot imagine me, not being close to my siblings at all. noooo no.

then he went on about how we should get the education if we can get it blablabla. If he really gave such a damn about it? my father would've been damn rich by now, and i'd be one of those princesses with a silver spoon in my mouth.

its not like dad's stupid. i think he's extremely smart, just that he taught to use it well. thank goodness, dad was more or less brought up by my english-speaking p.great grandmother. i think i would've loved her, if i ever saw her. a pity she was gone, when i was born. mom said she was super wise, and extremely classy. haha. one can only imagine now.

sometimes i wished i was a child again. when all i did was play play play.

when, there was no "bad blood" in the family, where there were no quarrels, fights, disputes, rivalry, competition and the bad stuff in the family.
when i could see my cousin and my aunt (my age), and be damn happy, cuz i know we'll be having fun, playing FAMILY and masak-masak, with my uncle(who is a yr younger than me) who would still be here, and be in awe of his sister, and my SIA stewardess aunt, and her younger sister...

one thing's good though. i finally saw my brother's gf :D HAHA. shes so tiny. so cute. (peektures up soon)

i cant wait for CNY to end. i cant wait to see my friends soon (:
HAVE A HAPPY NIU YEAR YALL.

p.s i changed my number alr. if you haven received the new no. , nudge me online, amanda.mdlee@hotmail.com

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