just a min ago i was feeling so happy, watching nice videos and all.
the next min, i am already crying. and im not even exaggerating. :(

i feel soooooooo, overwhelmed with emotions! :/

WHY CANT SHE JUST TELL ME BEFOREHAND BEFORE BUYING THAT BLAZER.

its not like i am unappreciative. it's like... im angry that she spent $100++ on that damn blazer. when i'll just be wearing it twice for school presentations, which, wont even amount to half an hour in an entire year.

why cant she just give me the money to buy those normal, comfortable, cooling, informal looking blazers that are selling in blogshops now. the ones that i can wear out to town/sch/etc.

its not like the blazer she bought me isnt nice. its just too nice from what i pictured the blazer that I want to wear. and then ... she goes on about, how i will be able to use it next time. gawd. like, how many times have i indirectly mention to her that i dont want to work in those damn cold stupid "formal-wear" offices. i dont want to be a fucking accountant or an auditor. full stop.

you might think i'm making a big fuss out of it. but i just dont like these kind of expensive surprises. esp when i think im unworthy of such an item.

and i dont want to disappoint her by being sulky, when i shouldve been thanking her and smiling from ear to ear! but i know i did already. thats why i feel so guilty and angry at the same time, that i started tearing, because im at a loss of what to do.

i know its out of love that shes buying such a blazer for me. but the situation is uncalled for. and i really wouldve been much happier, no, over the top if she got me those $30 blazers from the blogshop.

haiyah. i duno what im thinking or saying luh. i think its my moodswings.


how now brown cow :(